Time flies when your busy (having fun?)

Time has flown. I blinked an eye and BAM its May. How did that happen?


Lots has happened. Lots has changed. It always does (ya know change is a constant). Trying to hold on to this rollercoaster called life (especially now that my seatbelt broke)



The Chickens (Aka "The Ladies") are awesome, and a reason to smile everyday, exhibiting new qualities that offer great perspective on life. We have 5 now (after giving 3 japanese bantams to Rachelle (we did raise them for her afterall)). My brother got 5 ladies as well. I miss Ruben, and can't wait to see his Oregonian girls.



(below: top roost - Nugget (golden), Dwarphine (black) bottom roost - Empress Hobo Chang Ba (black))






















(Above: left - Scout (red), right - Tyra(golden/black)






Art Studio has been pumping (not necessarily at "full steam" but going none-the-less). I did a nice yellow bike piece and lucha libre mask I posted here. I am aching to get some screen printing setup. I've got a couple of sweet projects lined up in the coming months that should keep me busy (skateboard deck, major wall stencil, potential warehouse art party...).


Love, well love just sucks these days,. I'll just quote a Zombie's song that should adaquetly describe how I'm feeling.


"Girl I know you’re not coming back anymore/So why oh why do I keep on watching the door/I talk to you as though you can hear what I say/But I’ll lose my mind If I keep on acting this way/I’ve got to get a hold on myself/Got to make believe I don’t care/Got to go someplace find a brand new place/Got to get out and get somewhere/Got to get a hold on myself/Got to take what life has to give...."

ahhh i love the Zombies.


carry on....

Chick Flicks

YUP... rolling right along into March, and things are pretty decent. The house recently acquired 9 baby chicks. 3 are supposed to be for a fellow skater, but after her actions at the game my roommate is hesitant to give the "mean woman" chickens. haha. We can't keep them all though, so some will have to go. Though, maybe we will keep them all... we'll see. I've got to work on the chicken project management schedule this weekend to ensure that we get their fence built soon. Chickens are GREAT! It is so much fun to watch them grow. They had their own personalities from almost the first day, and its overwhelmingly pleasurable to see them grow into those traits. I'll post pics soon, but here is a YouTube channel I started for them.

http://www.youtube.com/user/CasaCochin

and here is a superb video of "Tyra" (our Ameracanus chicken) dive-bombing an innocent group of sleepers.



Expect some cute, funny, boring, and weird chicken videos from this casa. My favorite so far is 'Nugget', a Buff Orpington who loves to cuddle in my neck. A friend of mine has a black orpington, and I was shocked at how big they get. Anxious to see this girl grow (and lay eggs!)

ALSO - The Hotrod Honeys won our first game. I already too exhausted talking about it to type a recap. You can read one on our website http://www.texasrollergirls.org/ but I do not endorse its complete validity, because the recap writer did not see the illegal/dirty take-out and face punch that resulted in game expulsion. Whatever. We won. This is just the beginning. Back to training.....

I repeat....
You need not worry about the future.
Do not fret the past.
Live free, strong and happy...
Here & Now.

expectations....

I'm not the original author of this post, but I found it very insightful for me personally, so I've chosen to re-post it...


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Expectations are the root of all evil.
Expectations are the root of all live. (you see that evil is live reversed?)
Maybe that's another way of saying that to expect things to happen in any way at all is a sure-fire way of living ass-backwards.

We have no idea what we are doing here, why, to what end, what purpose. Therefore it follows that any expectations we might have, are likely wrong. We all expect happiness, yet, happiness is what we use to describe a situation where basically we get what we want. We ascribe an emotional state to a condition which is highly unlikely from the start to ever be fulfilled.

There is a line from a song by the band The Fixx, "The pain of life IS the pleasure of living" Most of the time, unhappiness stems from trying to hold on to something that the Universe, or Spirit, is trying to get us to release. The harder we try to hold on to something that Spirit wants us to let go of, the more hellish it will be. If, instead, we embrace the FACT that none of us has any real control over what goes on here, and embrace CHANGE when it comes knocking on our door, only then can we really have a chance at happiness.

So, if you are lost, it's okay. If you think you are having a shitty life, that's okay too. (because life is only shitty if you compare it to something that YOU THINK....might be better. Just because you THINK it might be better another way, doesn't make it so) Best just instead of letting go of life....to just let go of your expectations FOR your life.

Accept what is given to you with gratitude, and then, crack open a nice beer and scarf some nachos.

One of my favorite characters in science fiction once said, "When things are at their worst, it's a brave man who can sit back and party". Silly really....

2:1

It's been almost a month since I last vented to you. It could be a time issue, but more likely is that the start of February was like a 180 for the year, finally everyday isn't sucking. Sure, still some conflict and stressful/hard days, but for the most part it has been a very good month. While walking to the bus stop on Feb. 1st I found a domino laying on the ground that had "2:1" on it. I kept it, cause I felt an odd connection to it. Initially cause 2+1 = 3, and 3 is a magic numer. My good friend Sara believes it is 2:1, February 1st - a new beginning.

The clearest day opened up on Feb 2nd for the Hotrod Honey photo shoot. We've finally awoken from off-season slumber (though "off-season" is kind of like Santa - it only exist for the disillusional) and are ready to kick ass. our new blood is fantastic and we are all in pretty positive spirits. KOOP is back on air, and despite a few blue-meanies hating our ever popular KOOP program "Now Playing Austin" Deidre and I are continuing to bring the hottest new local indie rock to the airwaves. I journeyed with the Texecutioner (Texas Rollergirls All-Star travelling team) to Tucson, AZ, which was both beautiful and insightful. It was a rough start as trainer/asst. coach, but I learned alot and can't wait for our next trip together. Finally, I've been skating harder and faster than before, and have a new fevered passion for it.

So.....

patience, I suppose, has it's benefits.

but love still sucks!

:-p

Can't see the forest for the trees....

View from the 3rd floor (photos taken by gina pina)

It was oddly beautiful outside yesterday. It was so dreary and foggy that you couldn't see downtown from my top floor, only layers of blue sky. I stared out the window for a while imaging that I was in a very small world, that reached only as far as my eye could see. Everything I needed was right by me, and everything I feared was far far away (not even in my city). I'm trying to find my way through this fog, but its hard to see the point (even after watching The Point). Rockman says "You see what you want to see, and you hear what you want to hear." Could this be true?

so far shitty 08

2008 has, thus far, been pretty fucking shitty. I feel like I am losing everything I cherish (radio station burnt down, skates and gear all stolen, love found and lost). I am trying to keep it in perspective since I haven't lost life, limb, or family, but its been hard to see the good in anything lately.
Not even art or music is making me happy today. :-(