expectations....

I'm not the original author of this post, but I found it very insightful for me personally, so I've chosen to re-post it...


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Expectations are the root of all evil.
Expectations are the root of all live. (you see that evil is live reversed?)
Maybe that's another way of saying that to expect things to happen in any way at all is a sure-fire way of living ass-backwards.

We have no idea what we are doing here, why, to what end, what purpose. Therefore it follows that any expectations we might have, are likely wrong. We all expect happiness, yet, happiness is what we use to describe a situation where basically we get what we want. We ascribe an emotional state to a condition which is highly unlikely from the start to ever be fulfilled.

There is a line from a song by the band The Fixx, "The pain of life IS the pleasure of living" Most of the time, unhappiness stems from trying to hold on to something that the Universe, or Spirit, is trying to get us to release. The harder we try to hold on to something that Spirit wants us to let go of, the more hellish it will be. If, instead, we embrace the FACT that none of us has any real control over what goes on here, and embrace CHANGE when it comes knocking on our door, only then can we really have a chance at happiness.

So, if you are lost, it's okay. If you think you are having a shitty life, that's okay too. (because life is only shitty if you compare it to something that YOU THINK....might be better. Just because you THINK it might be better another way, doesn't make it so) Best just instead of letting go of life....to just let go of your expectations FOR your life.

Accept what is given to you with gratitude, and then, crack open a nice beer and scarf some nachos.

One of my favorite characters in science fiction once said, "When things are at their worst, it's a brave man who can sit back and party". Silly really....

2:1

It's been almost a month since I last vented to you. It could be a time issue, but more likely is that the start of February was like a 180 for the year, finally everyday isn't sucking. Sure, still some conflict and stressful/hard days, but for the most part it has been a very good month. While walking to the bus stop on Feb. 1st I found a domino laying on the ground that had "2:1" on it. I kept it, cause I felt an odd connection to it. Initially cause 2+1 = 3, and 3 is a magic numer. My good friend Sara believes it is 2:1, February 1st - a new beginning.

The clearest day opened up on Feb 2nd for the Hotrod Honey photo shoot. We've finally awoken from off-season slumber (though "off-season" is kind of like Santa - it only exist for the disillusional) and are ready to kick ass. our new blood is fantastic and we are all in pretty positive spirits. KOOP is back on air, and despite a few blue-meanies hating our ever popular KOOP program "Now Playing Austin" Deidre and I are continuing to bring the hottest new local indie rock to the airwaves. I journeyed with the Texecutioner (Texas Rollergirls All-Star travelling team) to Tucson, AZ, which was both beautiful and insightful. It was a rough start as trainer/asst. coach, but I learned alot and can't wait for our next trip together. Finally, I've been skating harder and faster than before, and have a new fevered passion for it.

So.....

patience, I suppose, has it's benefits.

but love still sucks!

:-p