ThinksGiving

I had a nice mellow Thanksgiving. A small group of my friends came over to the house for a wonderful dinner (Dg rocked the Turkey and won "best dish" of the evening!). Then we drank, smoked, watched some Flight of the Conchords (Ucking Hilarious!) and me and Dg did Now Playing Austin. The weekend turned into "thinks-giving" though, where I just sat and thought. Think Think Think. Life, Love, Family, Priorities, Death... I sat down and played the piano for a while this weekend. Piano (music) has always been my therapy; a security blanket, something that helps me cope. I figured I would have lost everything I ever learned, which is partly true, but alot of it came back to me relatively fast (compared to how long it took to initially learn). I am going to play piano more. Everyday if possible, it's my new therapy regime.

One of my brothers best friends, Brian, (RIP Root) killed himself last week. Rube called me on Tuesday cause he was feeling really bad. He'd found a picture of me and Root when I visited Oregon at age 18. He was a really cool guy, and at the time had been "National Forest Jumping" (cause you can only stay in one national park for 14 days or something). It's a bummer to hear that he is no longer with us on earth. Indeed, times are hard, and it is a difficult world. I had to think about what it would be like to lose a friend, and I'm not sure I'd deal with it well. I know Rube feels bad cause he thinks he could have (should have) done something, but he shouldn't bear this burden. Bummmer..... I wish I had a positive end to this story, but it's just something that was weighing on my chest. I love you Rube, I have you and Root in my thoughts. *love*